Silent Night.....

Instead of focusing my thoughts on positive things like the holidays, and Christmas and merry good tidings... I've been on the sick and shut in list since I left work on Friday... coughing like crazy, medicating and feeling like this.......

I really want to be happy and in the holiday spirit, it's just been difficult in light of the way my year has been going. I keep thinking about the past two Christmas seasons, I keep reminscing on what once was, the memories and moments I shared with someone that is no longer a part of my life & it is really putting a damper on my holiday season. I'm not trying to be a grinch, but at the current moment I am really hurting & not feeling the holidays. But I digress.....

The majority of my friends are out of town spending the holidays with their families, and the ones who are here have been slightly m.i.a. so I went to a party on my own Friday night. It was at an upscale restaurant and had I not been feeling the way I do I probably would have really enjoyed it more....but again I digress.... I'm just happy that I don't look the way I have been feeling on the inside. -coughs uncontrollably-

And, that's about all I have in me for tonight.....