Mental Health Day

This was an extremely long weekend for me. In addition the 4th of July Friday off from work, I decided to extend my vacation and take a much needed mental health day today. 

No, I'm not crazy...well, not on most days... but I really just needed a day to myself to take care of myself. Granted I definitely do my part of taking care of myself, but most weekends I usually can't get everything I need to do, done. Some errands are handled M-F, on a 9-5 basis, which doesn't work well for me since I'm not usually leaving my office until 6 or sometimes after. And when I'm leaving work, I'm usually struggling to make it through traffic to my side of town to get a lot of my business handled. But I digress. 

Since I transitioned to my new firm, it's been non-stop work. The last vacation I had was in December, which was months ago now. (And I didn't go anywhere...) I also didn't take any time off whatsoever when I changed jobs, so needless to say I needed a break. 

My July 4th was super low key. I usually don't get all celebratory for the holiday since, let's face it, my ancestors were not popping fireworks and enjoying freedom back in 1776..but that's an entirely different story for another day. I spent my day sleeping, reading & relaxing. Then later that night I rolled over to meet one of my besties for dinner & swung by another friends apartment for a few shots, I mean minutes, ha... then headed home. 

For some reason I don't remember Saturday, but I feel like my attitude was trash. I didn't leave the bed and don't remember talking to another living soul all day. Oh, and it rained. 

By the time Sunday rolled around, I was feeling like a normal human being again. After a nice chat with my mother, I didn't feel so bahumbug about life anymore. A friend and I headed out for a little Sunday Funday: translation, cheap bellini's and carafes of hibiscus mimosas + hookah & girl talk on the patio of an undisclosed location. Surprisingly, the heat was bearable so we were able to enjoy some time outside. She was even gracious enough to snap a few photos for me on the patio. I posted a few on Instagram, if anyone is interested... I didn't like how they showed up since I used my iPhone, so I'll spare the blog the bad photography. 

It was my first time at this spot, but I will definitely be back. It was definitely the right vibe for some good old chill and unwind times. 

I don't know why I overthink. Or get myself into feelings of discontent. I discredit all that I have done and all that I have accomplished so often that it's sickening. I just told myself last weekend that I needed to focus on the positive, and just like that I spent a large majority of the weekend with a case of the what-if's and why-not-me's. It's so easy to fall into a pattern of comparison & second guessing, but it is my goal to work on looking past those feelings. I get that it's human nature, but I think a part of maturing and growing in my journey is to learn how to be happy with the life I have and focus on making it the life I want. I waste entirely too much energy thinking about what I don't have or why certain things are taking too long to come into fruition..... I take so much for granted. 

I'm a work in progress, but a part of that work is to be grateful. Another part is to not compare my life and my journey to anyone else's path. I need to focus on my peace, and my growth and my forwardness & eventually everything will fall into place. Next time I feel those feelings creeping in, I will log off the social networks and put all my attention on my self worth. Everything is fine. Everything will happen right when it is supposed to. The best is yet to come. I'm grateful for everything I've been through, and for everything I've been kept from. This is my life. I am grateful for it. 

And if all else fails, I can always go shopping. Or take a long long nap. 

And if all of that doesn't help, I take a mental health day so I can reflect & put things into perspective. 

And that typically works.....